Oh man, today held so much... Waking around 10:30, I showered and got my brother up, and within the next hour we were gone -- yes, that is definately a record when it comes to more than one person leaving the house. We returned an old trashy video my dad wanted to watch, which consists of some guy riding around on his bike, getting off to get gas and eat and beat people up, and then getting back on. After 20 minutes, my mom turned it off. Heh... Serves the bastard right... Seeing as how we skipped breakfast, we went on to Taco Bell and tried that new... thing? with the cheese wrapped around the cruchy thing? ... Right. Anyway, I got him into target and surprisingly enough, into some really nice clothes. When I say that, I mean that I -loved- the shirts he got, 'cept for one, but he really wanted it and who am I to argue with a man who goes after what he wants? Well, not that my brother's a MAN yet... (Come to think of it, I -do- like men who know what they want and take it......

You could say it started like any other young love in high school. Boy meets girl. Boy falls in love with girl. Boy dates girl. Boy loses girl.
I guess it's the commonplace that is the most tragic.

I was - am - a senior in high school. I met a girl with a sparkling personality ... to her the world wasn't a bitter place. She loved art and anything beautiful. She represents everything I wish I was.

She still does.

We were happy in each other's arms until I inadvertently hurt her. I loved her and would do anything to protect her, but in the end the lethal blow came from me. That's when she didn't want to risk being hurt again. We haven't thought of each other romantically since.

Well, I still do. So I guess that's a lie.

Today she's the best friend I've ever had. We can talk to each other about anything and everything. She said that there's no one she's ever been closer to.

I assume that's why it came as such a shock when she asked me how I'd feel if she dated another guy. I told her how I felt somehow betrayed, but that I was fine with it. What else could I do?

I suppose I was somehow hoping for a reprieve. I thought I loved her for all the right reasons so I would be delivered to a world that was a beautiful place - the place where she resided.

That hasn't happened yet. I doubt it ever will.

I'm trying not to mind, though. Friendship lasts longer than a failed relationship at this age. We're still each other's closest friends.

But I can't help but feel every ounce of jealousy and hatred at myself when she talks about him or when she's doing something with him.

To her, love is spontaneous. To me, I know why I did and still do love her. And we're best friends, something harder earned and more permanent.

I should be happy, shouldn't I?

 

 

Lenny and the Squigtones
Hey, awesome, Shanna, this may not be such a big surprise, but I have this album!

The Lenny and the Squigtones album was released at the height of Laverne and Shirley's fame. I had a copy when I was a kid because of their song "Night After Night." It was a minor hit, actually.

But the reason why I love the album now is for its connection to This Is Spinal Tap, not only because Michael McKean was David St. Hubbins in my favorite movie of all time, but because of the Squigtones:

 

And if you look closer, check out who's credited for guitar/clarinet/vocals:

 

Yep, none other than Christopher Guest, with all his hair at that, and using his own character's name he would use in Tap.

I love those late 70s and early 80s comedy albums. There's some great stuff on Albert Brooks' first album with Harry Shearer, A Star is Bought. for instance, which is just great.

Feeling a bit Dragon-y today, I went and took the What Color Dragon are you test. Last time I took it I was Yellow, So I was curious to see if it had changed. Here are my results:

A YELLOW Dragon Lies Beneath!

I took the Inner Dragon online quiz and found out I am a Yellow Dragon on the inside. My Inner Dragon is the most interesting of all. Yellows are the fourth rarest dragon of all (after Gold, Platinum and Chromatic dragons). They spend the vast majority of their time soaring high above the ground, often for no particular reason. They love to be in the air, and are thus typified as the Air Elemental dragon. All of the Elemental dragons are technically aligned "Chaotic Evil" but a Yellow is about as close as they come to being Neutral. So if you catch me being sweet, it's perfectly normal. But it might be a feint.

 

I like to spend time in silent, aerial meditation and would only really attack someone if provoked. My favorable attributes are the sunrise, Spring, incense, clouds, and any kind of helpful air current. When it's needed, my breath weapon is pure bolts of Lightning. How's that for a neat piece of carry-on luggage? See you amongst the clouds!